July 24, 2020
He Is the God Who Sustains Us.
Thanks to the Lord! Next Tuesday will be my fourth round of chemotherapy. That means chemo is halfway done. These past months would have been very difficult, but because the Lord was with me, because He held me in his arms and surrounded me with His love, I would say from my heart that every day has been spent with His gracious arms under me, and that the Lord has truly made difficulty into a gift.
For the past two months, I generally have about ten hours of sleep each night, waking every two hours to eat something. In the middle of the night; all is quiet. I am all alone with a small bowl of food which I would finish in two bites in times past. Now I can take only little nibbles, finishing it slowly. Every little bite reminds me of the psalm, “Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him.” (Psalm 34:8). This little bowl of food is really full of the Lord’s great kindness. He has helped me. Every time I take a small bite, I take it as the
time to taste the goodness of the Lord. The Lord is truly good to me and He sustains me every moment of the way. From this small bowl of food, I also saw the love of the church brothers and sisters. Almost every day they take turns to cook the food, bringing it to my home. They spend a lot of time, using very good materials to cook delicious food. I am very grateful and my heart is satisfied with every bite I take. I also thank the Lord for Mrs. Ko and my sister. They take very good care of me every day. Five days before each chemotherapy, by doctor’s orders I am not
allowed to eat anything cold, not get anything from the refrigerator. Every time I get up, Mrs. Ko or my sister take turns to also rise and prepare food for me. I have been truly living in the grace of God and the love and prayers of brothers and sisters everywhere. I want to praise the Lord who sustains us with love and grace.
Right after the third chemotherapy, I could eat more. However, a few days later the amount of food intake slowly decreased. The doctor decided to have me go to the hospital three days a week for IV to avoid dehydration. Dehydration would quite hamper the function of the digestive system. Thanks to the Lord, this arrangement has been effective. Eating and drinking increased again, and my body maintained no weight loss. I thank the Lord that He is the God who sustains us. As David said, “The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness.” (Psalm 41:3). Our Lord is full of grace. He cares of us. Those who take refuge in Him, though on sickbed, will enjoy a time of His love.
Note: We will have Bible Camp the week of Sunday July 26 to Saturday August 1 and then a week of Discipleship Training. My sharing by notes like this one will be suspended. I want to resume my sharing August 9, Lord willing. Please pray for my next chemotherapy July 28 and for the surgery in late August or early September.