July 17, 2020
“He is the God Who cares for Man”
Thanks be to the Lord! It has been one week since my four-day stay in hospital. Everything isrecovering well except that food intake is even less than it used to be. I could only eat a little at a time every two hours and lost five or six pounds. On July 14th I went to the hospital to draw blood and see a doctor for check-up before chemotherapy. The result of the blood test showed that the white blood cell index was too high. That’s not terrible; thanks to the Lord, I don’t have to worry much about being infected. Red blood cells, though still low, reached new highs; so no blood transfusion is needed this week. But the nutritional index was low, though it had been lower. I thank the Lord for His constant care for me and His healing upon me that my condition has improved. The doctor said I lacked enough nutrition and advised me to eat more. He said: “Eat whatever you like to eat, don’t worry about any diet restriction.” This is good news, but I thought to myself: “I have tried my best to eat every two hours, even at night, but was able to eat only a little. How can I eat more?” The doctor added that I was dehydrated and lost five or six pounds of weight, therefore I need to drink more water. I told the doctor: “My stomach is small, no room for water after eating food.” He said: “Then eat more, we will give you more fluid via IV.” My heart thought, “This should not be the best solution! But since the doctor can only do this, I will entrust the rest to the Lord!” Out of my expectation that when I was still doing chemotherapy I started having appetite, and finished the big lunch Mrs. Ko and my sister prepared for me plus the snack and drink hospital provided! It really surprised me that my appetite improved so quickly! Not only did I have the appetite to eat, I doubled what I’ve eaten before. After going home, I still eat every two hours at this better level. So it looks like my body will be able to maintain the required nutrient and fluid intake! The Lord has indeed performed a wonderful miracle again.
When I entrust myself to the Lord, He works and heals me. As the
psalmist says, “What is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You care for him?” (Psalm 8:4), I am truly thankful, as a man who is unworthy of His grace and makes mistakes, the Lord still cares for me. He really loves me! I want to love Him more, surrender myself to Him, and testify for Him.